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So my foundation year is essentially finished - I had my end of year show preview evening last night. It's bizarre. I've hated this year but I've really grown to love a lot of the people I've met, especially those I've painted. It's weird spending so much time getting to know someone but at the same time hardly knowing them at all. I'll miss my friends. The night out in town afterwards was a lot of fun. I danced and didn't care and laughed a lot, and I liked it. The preview evening was so busy. There were so many people, in two whole hours I still didn't find enough time to talk to everyone I wanted, or properly look at everything. I'm glad

everything's a bit crazy at the moment. i was a passenger in a car crash last week, and i got whiplash. it's painful, and it means i can't do my own test until next month. i'm feeling really unfocused, and really scared. i want to paint, i want to escape, and i can't. i walk into that room and i just feel trapped. i feel like i can't create anything, like i don't have any space. i feel temporary and it scares me that this isn't, it's real and i'm running out of time. i want to get out, i want to travel, i want to see so much more and i'm only now realising how naive my plans are. i have my sights set far too high. i feel so stupid. i feel

hello, it's been a while. this is going to be a short one, because i've not really been working on much over the summer. some photographs and things but nothing big. i got my A level results on thursday - A*A*A. one of the A*s was in Art, I got 100% in my exam and coursework. kind of in shock, but pleased. the other was in maths and the A in chemistry. so yeah. i'm scared about starting at darlington. i know the foundation diploma year is the right way to go, but i'm still scared. i have so much holiday work to do that i haven't even started yet. anyway - i'll be back to posting work soon, bear with me. <3